Boxed in anxiety of the unknown
is taking over this confused body. Starting to ignore time and its existence. Just wish to breakout of the mad ness of this mind. Breathing is even, chest could stop or explode at anytime. Attempting to clear it all from the racing mind to center my soul’s universe. Sitting, bringing in the light, centering on the positive holding onto and appreciating. The valleys can be worse. Spirits have spoken to stop the shaking. The body being opened to the whispers of the calm. April 2, 2020 @Andrew Scott – Just A Maritime Boy 2020
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Take my open, pleading hand.
Walk me through the pitch dark of this unpredictable place. A gentile, calm touch is needed to calm by bodies nerves from what it cannot see. The blindness causes cold fear. Feel so lost looking up for guidance. Clouds have covered the guiding moon and the bright traveling stars. So alone out here. The comfort of knowing what is next has been taken away without care. Each step brings anxiety. Do not wish to move forward. Take my open, afraid hand. Walk me through the unforgiving dark. January 12, 2020 © Andrew Scott - Just A Maritime Boy 2020 I am losing my voice a lot
at the scenes being played in front of us all. They bring shock and disbelief. A news article shows a twelve year old laying, barely there, in a hospital bed. Found hit on the side of a wintery street. The driver of the missile car was nowhere to be found. The boy left with bruised, broken bones, dried blood on a puffy face. The coward driver drove away and left the boy for dead. The disgust took the voice away. A man shot down by the boys in blue after stabbing walkerbys on the historic London Bridge. The tortured man breaks while wearing a fake explosive. Taking innocent lives he hopes. What pushes a man’s mind to drive to such means. The thoughts cloud a mind. Words are lost in thinking. A man takes his own life after being released from a wellness check. Kept in for less than an hour. Friends called officials constantly to check and help the young adult. The powers that be kept releasing until the life was taken away. Why was the man released and left to his own devices. Head shaking, no words. So much to be said. The wrongs being spread that can be changed with just one voice. The voice lost today. November 29, 2019 © Andrew Scott – Just A Maritime Boy 2019 Know sometimes it is hard to get out of bed.
easier to shield self from the day ahead and stay away in the alone dark. Difficult to see with eyes closed that times are better ahead. You walk around with no one understanding. That is what your mind says. Thoughts based on what you see and feel about the outside world. The tragic outweighs the good in your eys. Hold on to the good you feel so you see the better ahead. The negative may overwhelm your entire being at all moments, giving thoughts to take it all away. Before that final step is prepared remember that is irreversable. Grab on to the one thing that lets you know it is better ahead. Find a person who has walked similar paths of troubles. Those people are all around to prop you mentally up without wanting a return. Share experiences of lonely thoughts and turn to positive one step at a time until the sunrise ahead is within reach and the feel ahead is better. November 25, 2019 © Andrew Scott – Just A Maritime Boy |
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